Thoughts...

These last 15 months have been some of the happiest and hardest of my life! The day I met Sam I knew my life would never be the same, and it hasn't. He has made my life so amazing and he has been such a blessing to me. He is my rock and my strength! Thank you Sam for who you are.

We have had a lot of frustrations and struggles also with our new lives together. We want more than anything in the world to be parents and have had to deal with a lot of heartache in trying to make that happen. 1 year ago I had a miscarriage, and had tried to get pregnant again for the next year without success. This September we did In-Vitro and last week had a positive pregnany result, but this week I am miscarrying again.

It's hard for me to understand why this has to happen to us, when we are trying to be faithful and follow the commandments of bringing children to the earth. Why is it so hard? But I know that we have to have faith and know that Heavenly Father will bless us.

I remember when we found out that my dad had cancer and the survival rate was zero. We still fasted and prayed that we would get a miracle. I remember my dad saying, "I feel like we are doing the right thing in asking for this, and even if our prayers aren't answered in the way we think they should be, it is helping us to have faith and rely on the Lord" After my dad passed away, my mom said she thought we had our miracle in that my dad didn't have to suffer.

My dad would always say that in great trials comes great faith and great blessings. I don't know why this has to happen to us, and it's hard not to be an emotional mess, but I am trying to follow my dad's example and have great faith. We will keep trying and maybe Heavenly Father needs us to give one of his sweet little spirits that is already here on the earth a good home. We are so grateful for the many prayers and love and support from our family and friends! We are so blessed to have so many people in our life who love us so much! And we love you so much! Thank you for helping us through this hard time in our lives

We Made It!

So I decided since I haven't posted anything for a few months it was time! We finally sold our Orem townhouse after soooooooooooooooo much drama. Like my sister-in-law Darci I have lost all faith in the realty business.The day we were moving and supposed to close the buyer backed out! Are you kidding me?!?!?! But we found a new buyer and everything worked out,although we could have gotten $23,000 more just 1 year previous. Oh well, we are finally here and almost settled.. besides our yard.. and we LOVE our new house! It has been so much fun for me to decorate, and redecorate! I'm sure it drives Sam crazy, but he is so good to let me do what I want to the inside of the house. I told him he can have the garage ;) I am posting a few pics of the kitchen, great room, sitting room/office and master bedroom

Our soon to be NEW HOUSE!!!

We've been married almost one year and I can hardly believe it! The whole time we have unfortunately been having to make two house payments, and Sam has sacrificed so much in driving so far to work. Well, things are changing... YAY! Sam sold his house in Moroni, and we should be selling my townhouse in Orem shortly, and we found our dreamhouse! Well, at least the dreamhouse that we can afford :) We decided Santaquin would be a good compromise for both of us, kinda in the middle for both of our jobs and both our family and friends. It is on the east benches of Santaquin right off the Canyon Rd so we have a beautiful view of the mountains and outdoor life for Sam, and also not too far from "the big city" for me. In the pictures there are still a million weeds, and we will have to put in a yard, and the city needs to put in a sidewalk, but it gives you an idea. I will post more pictures after we move in and get it decorated. Hopefully by the middle of July we will be all settled in... YAY :)

Vegas Baby!!!

For Memorial weekend Sam and I decided to go to Vegas. My friend Brittney and her husband Brady and their kids were heading down there and wanted us to come. It was a last minute quick trip, but we had a blast! Exactly 1 year ago on this same weekend we got engaged in Vegas, so it was fun going back to celebrate. I can't believe it has been a year since Sam proposed! Time goes by so fast, but it also just feels like we've known each other and been together forever. I'm so grateful for Sam, the love of my life! I decide to post a picture of when we got engaged (on the gondola ride at the Venetian) since I didn't have a blog then, and also a pic of us on the bigshot at the top of the Stratosphere. That ride was SO scary! But I loved it! Brittney about had a heart attack, but we made her ride it anyway. She was screaming the whole time holding on to her step-son's chair! I was screaming the whole time too :) One of the pics is the view at the top of the stratosphere. It was so pretty, you could see forever.

Great Idea!

The weather is finally starting to get warm and I am SO excited! The weekends lately have all seemed to be cold and I hadn't had a chance to be out enjoying the sun until today. It's not quite warm enough to go swimming yet, but I really wanted to get rid of my sickly looking white winter skin. Sam had the great idea to go get some rafts and lay in the hot tub! It was perfect! We had a such a fun, relaxing time in our backyard today :) I can't wait for boating weather!! YAY!!!

Sam's Dreams Come True!

Ever since Sam sold his 4-wheeler last year he has been wanting a Rhino SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Bad! So I bought him this Rhino for Christmas, thinking finally his dreams would come true ;) I guess it wasn't quite the Rhino he had in mind. It held him over for a while... but only a while :)

Rhino, Rhino, and more Rhino

After many months of looking on KSL every day, several times a day, Sam finally found the Rhino he wanted and we could afford. So this weekend we drove to Preston Idaho to pick up Sam's baby! I can't even expain how excited he was! Just like a little kid at Christmas! Now all we need is the house I want on the hills of Santaquin so he can ride it out of our backyard!