late night thoughts...

I couldn't sleep tonight (as is the case for most nights) and since it was too late to call family and friends to chat, I thought I would catch up on their lives through the wonderful world of technology. I have been reading blogs for the past hour or so, and most have been reflecting over the past year. I couldn't help but start to do the same. I read my sis-in-law's Becky's blog and got a little emotional thinking about the blessings that have been showered upon my whole family.

I've been thinking about my dad a lot during this holiday season, which stirs up so many emotions. I miss him so much, but feel so happy thinking of so many wonderful memories. It's funny how life works, and I'm sure my siblings will agree, that although it has been a great hardship having him gone, all of our lives have been so blessed in the time since he passed. (it will be 2 years in Feb)

I had so many anxietys of him being gone. Not being married at the time, the feeling of not having him be there when I someday got married was so overwhelming. My husband would never know him... My kids would never know him... Who would I go to for advice? How would I survive without him? My brother told me that he would probably be able to help me more from above than on earth, and I thought, "Are you crazy? How could he help more not even being here"? But it's true...

I am now married to the man of my dreams, that I know with all my heart was due to divine inspiration. I know my dad had a hand in it. And he WAS there when I got married... And my kids WILL know him...

I am so grateful for such amazing parents! For a mother who is sweet and patient beyond all other, and so willing to sacrifice such much for her children. For a father who was such a great example of the kind of person we all should be. For my brothers and sister and brothers and sisters in-law who would do anything for me. For my neices and nephews who show me so much love and let me love them like they were my own. For the best mother and father in-law that I could ever ask for. But most importantly for my amazing husband. He is such an example to me. He is so worth the LONG wait and all the years of worrying it would never happen. He is my fairytale come true!

My life is truly blessed!